Time Marches On...
Well into the ninth month of a 12 month deployment, 16 months away from home when this is all said and done. I have less than 100 days left, and the time seems to be standing still. Maybe its the Christmas Season, the end of the year, or just the fact that I am burned out that is making December the longest month in the history of man.
In a year from now, my life will be much different than it is today, most won't even recongnize it. I will have a new job, possibly a new address, and possibly be single for the first time in almost 10 years. Time is the one thing that is constant, there is nothing that we can do about it. I often find it hard to focus on what is going on here, and focus more on what is going at home, both good and bad. 12 hours in a guard tower leaves one with a lot of time to think. I am anxious to get on with it, enough of this, I am tired, I want to go home, I want the other shoe to drop one way or the other, and I want to see my family, my SO, and my country that I have given so much for. I have learned whatever lessons I was supposed to over here. Life is the greatest teacher that one has, but what else can I learn here? How to hurt? Check. How to be scared? Check. How to appreciate those things that are REALLY important in my life? Check. How to miss my family, and my entire way of life? Check. How to move on with my life? That one will have to wait for a few more months. I will be back in the Springtime. Not my favorite time of year, but one that is perfect symbol of rebirth, that man has associated with that season for all time. Rebirth of the new me.
New Years Resolutions:
Be more patient with people.
Not to put back on the 45+ pounds that I've lost while over here.
To make smart decisions about all aspects of my life.
To learn to follow through with things. (this has been a big one my whole life)
To hold on to that feeling of wonderment about the little things in life that most people miss in their day to day lives.
To watch my nieces and nephews grow.
To get a job with a Fire Department.
To love like I've never been hurt.
In a year from now, my life will be much different than it is today, most won't even recongnize it. I will have a new job, possibly a new address, and possibly be single for the first time in almost 10 years. Time is the one thing that is constant, there is nothing that we can do about it. I often find it hard to focus on what is going on here, and focus more on what is going at home, both good and bad. 12 hours in a guard tower leaves one with a lot of time to think. I am anxious to get on with it, enough of this, I am tired, I want to go home, I want the other shoe to drop one way or the other, and I want to see my family, my SO, and my country that I have given so much for. I have learned whatever lessons I was supposed to over here. Life is the greatest teacher that one has, but what else can I learn here? How to hurt? Check. How to be scared? Check. How to appreciate those things that are REALLY important in my life? Check. How to miss my family, and my entire way of life? Check. How to move on with my life? That one will have to wait for a few more months. I will be back in the Springtime. Not my favorite time of year, but one that is perfect symbol of rebirth, that man has associated with that season for all time. Rebirth of the new me.
New Years Resolutions:
Be more patient with people.
Not to put back on the 45+ pounds that I've lost while over here.
To make smart decisions about all aspects of my life.
To learn to follow through with things. (this has been a big one my whole life)
To hold on to that feeling of wonderment about the little things in life that most people miss in their day to day lives.
To watch my nieces and nephews grow.
To get a job with a Fire Department.
To love like I've never been hurt.
posted by L.A. Soldier at 12:48 AM
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